Ytd was a great day for me ! Only morning/afternoon abit screwed up.. Haha.. Feel lots of love and happy from xpp as we don't really quarrel and enjoying food around bugis area as I went to look for the things I need.. Now in train goin book in for duty le. Hahas!

this year new year really bad.. kanna duty and had a quarrel with gf.. hais.. i guess i am really sux and lousy guy to be people bf ba.. saded.. feel dam sad and feel like crying..

today is chinese new year.. but i am going back for my duty.. never expect chinese need do duty on new year ba ? same thinking.. too bad this is ns.. not lala land.. the first person who wish me a happy chinese new year is a friend that i know in gunbound for like.. around 7-8 years le ?? haha.. also cannot rmb..hope everyone will have a sweet , nice and happy chinese new year and win alot on blackjack tonight ! huat ah!!!

.today is chinese new year eve.. morning went to temple pray papa and went to meet dd with ting.. at first the day was great and nice as i got a chance to meet dd for a movie and breakfast x lunch.. but my bad luck happen on me again.. first is.. i cannot find my nebo card so all 3 of us need pay $3 more for the movie ticket.. then went to eat and when we are about to enter , i bu xiao xin knock dao dd de shoes and the ribbon drop on the floor.. been trying to fix back at the first part of the show but end up the ribbon drop out after she walk a few steps.. then no choice lor.. know she confirm blackface me and confirm get scolding from her.. guess this year gonna be a bad luck year as kanna scolding for the beggining of the year.. totally dont have any mode for any dinner now.. just hope can faster go home and call it a day.. hais.. sad and disappointed new year for me.. hate myself for being dum , boring , irreatating and dont know how to be nice to gf..

so sian in camp having duty again.. everyone are sleeping only left me alone in the room not sleeping.. dont know why having the bad feeling about my gf.. she just sms me and ask me to check for a price in game and the feeling is when she need me then she will come for me.. is that i think too much or is she really mean that way ? why she dont ask me in a sweet way so i wont think that way ? hais.. heart really hurt and feel sad.. i cant get any sleep since i told her i going to sleep at around 11 plus till now.. thinking how to be a better bf and give her a better life as i see some of my camp mate can make it and their gf is like so good and sweet to them.. i also wan.. €sometimes i had been asking myself.. am i really so bad luck and stupid ? or i can have some enjoying days like last time when i work and spend money without thinking ? "today is a gift.. ytd is a pass.. tmr is a mystery ?

just book out of camp.. feel so tired and no mode.. i just spoil my gf mode for saying i wanna go home again.. am i stupid or what.. feel so hopeless about myself and the lifestyle i am having now.. really hope i can faster change to a better guy and give her lots of happiness and always feel the love when she go out with me... just like last time.. jia you ba wei wen..

Another year in my life is going to pass in 5mins time.. ytd in camp doing duty feel so sian and no mode to do anything.. maybe i miss my gf too much while she go holiday ? I feel that i am so lonely and i am just someone extra in this world.. everything i have to do myself and my friends just there talking cock and smoke and relax.. what type of world is this.. how i wish i can have some helping hand to fix those things and go up rest and prepare myself for duty.. after having a sad day.. morning i went to eric house to meet eddy and see him play 100 gacapon and help him and my guild mate get scarlion helm.. feel so happy as a guild master i help to organize a sacrlion batch for them to get helm.. 1st run was wasted as my dk never rush and the guy who need helm die.. 2nd run was a lucky run as the scarlion drop 5 helm for them to slowly loot and choose.. miss my gf lots.. feel quiet emo this few days without her around me.. lucky got my friend accompany me and always be there with me when i feel sian and lonely.. he will treat me eat and go shopping with me.. but i know its very bad like keep eating free food.. sometime really dunno papa leave me cause of sickness is a chance for me to be indepandent as a young age and learn more things or is a bad childhood for me.. till now i still cannot forget everything about him and still feel very sad for what happen.. miss u lots papa.. how i wish everything can restart back to last time when u are there for me.. always go fishing and drive ur lorry send me here and there.. go east coast park buy hokkian mee and sit behind the lorry and eat if there are no seat around..